It's really oppressive, suffocating, asphyxiating.

I'm suddenly lagging behind my studies, why.
1. Sleeping in class, I need to stop doing that -.-
But time is the problem, I get the most, 6 hours of sleep per day during weekdays.
2. I tend to neglect subjects I don't like, eg Geography and Chemistry.
I told my Geo teacher that I wanted to drop Geo and she believed me, LOL.
3. I started studying to please OTHERS, not myself, esp for my parents.
It's really hard to please my parents, but I have to.

& other random stuff:
-I think my best friend thinks I forgot her birthday, hell no.
-There's that Adam Koo Workshop coming in late March, something like day camp. I think I'll be trapped in school till nighttime. Which I find a waste of time since I know most of the stuff they'll be telling us thanks to Kumar.
- I'm staying at home tomorrow for E-learning, another waste-my-time-thing.
- I fantasize about traveling around the world \m/
- My Mother Tongue teacher gives us Higher Mother Tongue work *insert wtf face here*
- I hate to wait until June for Burned! (House Of Night Novel Series)
- I also hate the fact that many Kpop groups & International Bands pick 2010 to come to Singapore (yes, even Super Junior!), I mean come on, isn't O lvl stressing us out enough, what a timing you pick to come ;(
- I passed 2 tests today, the happiness didn't last long because then I found out that I failed 2 others!!!
- I want to try a Choco Pie
- I planned to go to cousin's house to watch Glee on his ridiculously huge flat screen tv during the March Holidays since he downloaded the whole series of it then Guitar Hero :D
- I want to enjoy like mad after Os tyvm.

Go listen to After School's "Because Of You".
Although I don't get what their video is trying to deliver to fans.

Chansung, Maknae, 2nd Favourite of mine in 2pm
Sorry Junho, you're pushed to 3rd Fav even though you're really cute :D

He trained for 4 years, disappeared in 4 days, unfair much?
It's called 'forgiving' when someone makes a mistake.
You deserve those white chrysanthemums outside your doorstep JYP.
(thanks Yining for helping me translate what they wrote in the Chinese Newspaper)

Never tired of waiting for you, Park Jay.

So maybe it's true that I can't live without you

Happy CNY :D
Spent mine at my cousin's house in Pasir Ris with brother.
Guitar Hero marathon! Had a blast man!

The posters look picture perfect, like something that came out of a painting.

Look at Tuekie and Taeyeon, have to admit it's adorable.
Maybe it's because their both leaders or something.

Picture credits go to: http://www.twelfs.com/blog/
Their blog layout is very very very pretty, seriously.

Again & Again

I think I am most fun when I'm not sober, screw that.
I'd like to thank Caitlin, for being a dufus with me that night & offering to visit my aunt's grave with me. Which I don't think I'm strong enough to visit yet.
Weilin & ZhiKuang for accompanying me home.
Liyang & Zeyan for being hilarious at pool.

Back to reality.

Totally K-pop related (^.^)

I think that Park Jaebum's body is freaking hot.
Plus the fact that he is short makes him so adorable :D

Happy Belated Kyu maknae! 22 years old already, heh.

How I prayed that this day would never come.

Dear you,
Their my friends, I'm with them, which makes me one of them. If being friends with you means throwing them away, I never thought you would ever consider that. I didn't want to attend school today, because I know we need time out from each other. I wanted to meet ShiLi so badly and break down in front of her but instead I had Tricia & Yining to comfort me because I knew I'd to face you sooner or later. My apology still stands, Im really fxuking sorry for eveything, because no matter what shit you put me through I never wanted to hurt you. Please forget how miserable I looked. So be happy, I will be too. Honestly, I think you'll be much happier without me. I won't contact you, it'll be like I never came into your life.



I don't want a conversation, I just want to cry in front of you.