my internet connection is becoming from bad to horrible -.-"
even MSN/YouTube is having war against it!
whatever, have to deal with it until my bros can fix the problem.
now the internet is only my 2nd source of entertainment, guitar 1st :D

& guess what? I/ H-A-V-E-N'-T/ G-O-T/ M-Y/ S-C-H/ B-O-O-K-S
the horror, i can't imagine >.<

it's funny how it seems like just yesterday you said to me:-
" Don't avoid, avoiding is stupid".

i swore i agreed with you at that time, i said i wouldn't do it.
well, im sorry that for now, i pretend anymore.
smiling & laughing while it hurts inside, it isn't that easy honey.
it takes mountains of courage just by facing you.
i need a time-out, a break, some time to recollect my courage & fix myself

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life