ELF's message to Super Junior

In my next life, I wont love all of you. Because in my next life, I wont be an ELF anymore.
In my next life, there wont be ELF, there wont be Super Junior.
In the next life, I only wish you were yourselves.

No more Super Juniors Leeteuk, only the privately quiet and delicate, Park Jung Soo;
No more Super Juniors Heechul, only the loud but surprising, Kim Hee Chul;
No more Super Juniors Sungmin, only the one who can be cute to make his parents happy, Lee Sung Min;
No more Super Juniors Donghae, only the one who works so hard for his fathers dream, Lee Dong Hae;
No more Super Juniors Hankyung, only the gentle and thoughtful one who makes delicious fried rice, Hangeng;
No more Super Juniors Yesung, only the one who has an artistic voice, Kim Jong Woon;
No more Super Juniors Eunhyuk, only the one who shows all his gums as he smiles widely, Lee Hyuk Jae;
No more Super Juniors Kibum, only the one who plays his PSP so much that he forgets to eat, Kim Ki Bum;
No more Super Juniors Ryeowook, only the cute and shy one who has a heavenly voice, Kim Ryeo Wook;
No more Super Juniors Kangin, only a glib-tongued one who likes drinking, Kim Young Woon;
No more Super Juniors Siwon, only the one who has a princely air about him yet likes skinship, Choi Si Won;
No more Super Juniors Shindong, only the one who doesnt look very eye-catching but is full of talent, Shin Dong Hee;
No more Super Juniors Kyuhyun, only the one who can show a bright and evil smile, Cho Kyu Hyun.
Not Super Junior a group, one life of Super Junior is enough.
Let all the love and charm be used up in this life, not leaving anymore for next time.
All those unnecessary times and things will pass..
Be the individuals you all used to be.

There wont be Super Junior, no more massive amount of fans surrounding you, no more bodyguards protecting you, no more unnecessary discussions or rumours,
You can be free to do what you want, to love who you want to love,
You dont have to cover up just to go for a walk in the park,
You can walk hand in hand with your girlfriends, eating cake together, watching movies together..
You can watch concerts with your family, but then it will be someone else on stage, not Super Junior anymore

When that time comes, you wont have to stay up at nights, you wont have just 2 or 3 hours of sleep due to packed schedules,
All of you can eat well, sleep well..
When that time comes, you wont have backaches from long hours rehearsing dances, wont leave bruises and injuries on your young bodies..
You wont have to say things like Once the camera is on, I have to change from Park Jung Soo to Leeteuk, Super Juniors Leader, and I have to show only the best to everyone.
When that time comes, even if youve injured yourself, you will be made to rest, and you wont have to grit your teeth through performances just for the fans.
When that time comes, you wont be the Super Junior that has thousands of people cheering for you..

But as for now, you are Super Junior that belongs to ELF. This is something that cannot be changed..
All ELF can do for you is: love you, love you very much, love you very very much, do our best in loving you.
Because in the next life there wont be Super Junior, we will use all the love we have in this life to love you.
In this life, I will love you with all I can. In this life, let ELF love you with all we can.
In the next life, please live a life that belongs to you..
In the next life, I wont love all of you, really.
Because in the next life, my world wont consist of Super Junior, Super Junior wont exist anymore.

However, if in my next life, Super Junior still exists,
I will still choose to become an ELF

Credits: Super Juniors Baidu Bar
Translations: Euodsie@sj-world.net

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I think my heart just stabbed itself again & again, I cried my eyes out. :'(
Yes, this post shall be here until even non-Super Junior fans read it!

Not even death could make us part

Life has been, uneventful. The way I want it to be. LOL.
Same cycle everyday, sleep, wake up, laptop, work, dinner, laptop, sleep.
Mum's finally going to pay my handphone bill today, like finally.

New Moon comes out today in the US -.-
3rd Dec is so-so-so-close, anticipate Edward Cullen people!


Alice- I don't think he was planning to live without you much longer.
♥


My left eye feels like it's going to get swollen, again.
Shucks, every time my eye gets red or swollen it'll take a fcuking long time to heal.
I've realized that my appetite has grown so bloody much, urgh, fatttttttttt.

So many things that I want to buy, but I must save money first.
& I have nothing else to blog about, plus Im hungry. Bye :D

Beautiful nightmare

Facebooking with my cousin:

Oh how I'd love to entertain myself with that! Siti was already crazy groupie about her Super Junior when I was over there yesterday. You gotta agree with me that 13 dudes in a boyband is wayyyyyyy to many. Plus Super Junior. Tak creative seh nama.

Pfft. I forgot. They have 15 dudes.


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Im going to kill him then dance to Sorry Sorry by his tombstone :)
When it comes to Super Junior, the fact that we are blood related is kicked to one side, muahahaha!
PS: Ignore the Siti -.-, I think he is just calling me that to annoyed me.
PPS: My phone can't call or sms, so leave me an sms and I'll try to call you back a.s.a.p.
PPPS: Taylor Swift is DEFINITELY dating Taylor Lautner, ouh-so-cool!

It's your love that my heart beats for

It's Friday the 13th.

I do not blame Super Junior or work for this dead blog. I blame bridging >:(
Anyway, dry post, refrained myself from posting Super Junior's pictures.

Just got home from Tricia's house, watched Music Bank for the 1st time man!
Watch 2pm and Beast but then I still went back to watch Super Junior on my phone.
I bought Super Junior M Mini album :D
I think that Beiwen is mad for smsing me @ 0000 just to ask about Kyuhyun's addiction to Starcraft. LOL.

Okay, getting sick of the internet gossip sites of "Ouh, most of Super Junior members had plastic surgery" or "Some did double eyelids plastic surgery".
F you, no one cares honney.

Bridging ends today. FINALLY.
In my 2 weeks of bridging, I have learnt absolutely nothing, so really, I'm pissed.
Still not seeing what's the big idea of retaining, I'd rather retain than suffer with no foundation at all of my Sec.3 work. But here I am, thinking of where the hell I can go after Os.
So well, I'll miss you 3e5 :/

Bye, I'm going to sleep. Yes, I'd rather not go out like I used to.
I realized that I get cranky if I don't get enough sleep, urgh.

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in

Mum told me something that my aunt told her before she passed on:

Treasure your daughter before you lose her

I still remember, I was going home from tuition a few years ago. Mum was waiting for me under our block to tell me the news, she couldn't bear to tell me over the phone knowing how bloody close me and my aunt was. To me, my aunt understood me better than my mum would ever will. Mind you, I stay at Hougang and she stayed at Bukit Batok and our relationship was like mother and daughter. She always stood by my side, cooked the best laksa ever, bought everything I wanted, played Lotto with the rest of my super huge extended family. I'd always wanted to stay over at her house which my mum would forbid but give in when my aunt convinced her that there was where I wanted to be.

Everything changed when my aunt left. I think my mum misinterpreted her words and became unnecessarily overprotective and irritating -.-. My aunt's husband remarried on the exact day of her 1 year death anniversary which made me hate his guts. My aunt's daughter cropped up at home, never coming out. I had no one to run to anymore, I hated how hypocrite my mum was, saying that playing Lotto was gambling so I wasn't allowed to play it anymore.
I've never visited her grave at the cemetery before, you can say that I don't accept her passing on, but after all these years, I still remember her face crystal clear.

I miss you.