listening to Over by LindsayLohan. sometimes I tend to look

at the negative shiate in my life more than the good times that

I get. Then I look back, I do have much more bad experiences than

good ones. I hate my new sitting arrangement, I'm lagging behind

my studies because there's no one to crap with, my mind will

just wonder off & drift to all my problems with all the time I

have. I'll only do the schoolwork on and off. Ironic isn't it?

When I have peace and quiet but still drift away.

Have to stop mixing with people I don't like, I've been through

school without you all these while, what makes you think i can't

do it now? I'll be fine.

& I'll be the first to go, don't want to be the last to know.

And and, I was doing fine, forgetting about you during the

March Holidays but then I saw your picture. It stabbed my heart

like hell. Thanks alot you idiot D:

I won't be the one to chase you but at the same time your

the heart that i call home.

Mum&Papa, don't try to get me to voice out now. I've tried for 13

years, the fights and cold wars that I can't ignore anymore.

Again, you guys just wouldn't understand, just keep denying the

fact that is right in front of your faces.

Love both of you but I've given up.

Honestly tell me that it's over.

On the fine side, I still have my true friends :}

It won't be right if we're not in it together.

out with Kylin & her clique, Kumar, Bryan, Erwin, Gabriel & Myron today.

had a blast, they are an awesome, entertaining & fun people :)

Warning: It's a picture spam post so don't say i didn't want you.

thanks to Gabriel for giving me a ride with him to Kylin's house

thanks to Kumar for being the sassy photographer

thanks to Bryan, Erwin & Myron for the company

& lastly, thanks and cheer up Kylin <3>

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off to my la la land now, having Choir early in the morning.

13 March '09 aka Sports Day : marked attendance, Macs, pasir ris beach then Ikea.

tons of pictures but these are the pictures that did make it :]

MY IDEAL BEDROOM :D

MY IDEAL KITCHEN

& MY IDEAL LIVING ROOM

materialistic much? i know. i just lovelovelove the velvet living room.
VELVET= EDWARD CULLEN ^^

my plans for this week is to sleeeeeeeeeep alot.
go out whenever i can, reach my house back real late.
see how i survive without hearing his voice & if i can't, drown myself in sticks.
try to figure and fix my life, its in a real mess right now.
eat less, much much less ( thanks to Caitlin Chew Kim May)
lastly, finish all the assignments teachers torture us with -.-

kthxbai.

i know i've not been updating my blog, been busy with school & etc.

not going to be active in blogging because Sec.3 life is torture.

life has been pretty hectic & crazy lately.

i need to escape to somewhere peaceful.

sitting with your best girl & guy friend, not the best idea.

what can i say, it's not the worst idea too.

it's not the best idea because:

- they break under pressure & your stuck in between them

- you have enough respect for them to ask them to shut up and stop bickering.

- there are more complications for you than there is for them.

it's not the worst idea because:

they love you for you, full-stop

Im tired of hurting other people when i hurt myself.

& i never gave myself to another the way i gave it to you.

don't even recognise the ways you hurt me, do you?

♥